I haven't written for a while now mainly because there are no major changes in my life. I am maintaining status quo which I think is not bad at the moment :) I have given up all hopes of getting pregnant naturally and have also accepted that we may never be parents. We are planning to do the FET next spring/summer. Wonder if a neutral attitude will be beneficial for getting the BFP :) Before I started trying for a baby, whenever I went to church or to temple, I would think I have nothing more to ask for so I just pray for good health for everyone. Then when we started TTC, I started praying for a baby of our own. My prayers are yet to be answered but last night I told Jesus that I don't dare pray for a baby anymore for fear that my last piece of faith will crumble. Funny me aye? I guess this is a desperate attempt to try get Jesus hear me :)
Christmas has whizzed by (I did wish Jesus a Happy Birthday) and I hope everyone has had a blessed one! I experienced sheer joy watching the kids open their Christmas gifts! I guess that's the joy of giving although we do not get to experience it when we donate to charitable foundations. As it is new year's eve today. I'd like to take this opportunity to wish all my readers a very Happy New Year! May your dreams of becoming parents come true in 2015! All the best of LUCK!! God bless!!
